I followed my dreams. I could have gone into any field (besides things that require advanced math like aerospace engineering or particle physics). I’m a smart girl. I could have done something like an MBA or an MPH or some other crazy, sexy degree. Instead, I chose this degree.
This degree inspired me to work on being a beautiful human being. This experience led me to meeting some wonderful friends, a great partner, and some of the most inspiring people I’ve ever known.
This degree did not promise to make me wealthy. It did not promise to provide me security. Heck, this degree didn’t even guarantee employment. Some degrees are better at those provisions, but none of them make any promises about the future.
That’s not a degree’s responsibility. It’s my responsibility.
You know what else is my responsibility?
Continuing to grow as a human being. Continuing to work on things that will create a person I am continually proud to be.
So, I’m working on patience. I’m working on confidence. I’m working on faith.
I won’t lie to you all. I won’t sit here and say something like, “It’s a breeze! Jobs are a plenty! I’m turning down offers faster than I turn down pumpkin spice lattes!”
OK, so now you know I’m lying. I don’t turn down pumpkin spice lattes and I don’t turn down job offers. I wish I did both, sometimes.
I started my part-time job and I stopped my part-time job. There’s a few reasons I’m not working in this position anymore, one finger pointing at me and one at my former employer, so it all evens out anyway.
Turns out that because I follow my passions, almost to a fault, it’s hard to hide when I’m apathetic. It’s difficult to muster up the smile and say, “Sure, I’d love to do this job!” when really, I want to do so much more than this job.
I’ve got big ideas, big aspirations, and a lot of impatience. I want to set the world on fire, but I’m having a hard time sticking around to watch that kindle burn, nourishing the flame, beckoning it into something that is that all-encompassing spark I feel about what I studied and how I want to see it thrive in my world.
So, I’m going to start being intentional. I’m going to take the jobs that are right for me. The ones that will feed my soul and my well-being. I won’t be a picky jerk, but I won’t waste anyone’s time, either. I have a lot to contribute and I need to remember that.
It hasn’t been the best of times and it hasn’t been the worst of times. It’s just been a time, looking for that job that will set me on the precipice of my life. Give me the right tools and I’ll hopefully get everyone to feel as passionate about mental health as I do. Just you wait.